Monday, May 26, 2008

Uncharted territory.

I have no school, no job, no pressing duties, and I really don't know what to do with myself. This may be the very first time in my life where my sole responsibility is to rest, eat well, and wait. It's the road less traveled in my journey. Weird stuff.

The idea that I, like so many other first timers, will likely gestate well into the 42nd week is a bit depressing. Unwisely, I have focused on my due date of June 4th. Now I am starting to realize that I may be looking more at mid-June. Ugh...

On the bipolar front, the mood coaster has been fairly smooth these last 9 months. I got the clearance from my psychiatrist to go ahead with trying to breastfeed after labor. This was a great relief considering her original plan was to put me right back on mood stabilizers as soon as the baby was born, meaning no breastfeeding. I am hell bent on trying to breastfeed, and now she is on board with the plan as well. So long as I don't show any signs of PPD or psychosis. Just typing that last word makes me shiver.

Spending time just lounging fosters unfounded guilt. So, I pass the time by visiting you all and your lovely posts. Speaking of which, Aurelia has great news, if not eventful. Stop on by and see for yourself.

14 comments:

Dino aka Katy said...

oooh I am so exited for you. Enjoy the peace and quiet and rest as it will be over in the next couple of weeks

Julia said...

You know, I was so sure I would go over with Monkey that I actually made plans for the week after my due date. She was born on the exact due date. I was talking about how I was going way over just the day before. If this helps, of course.

Good luck with breast feeding. I am so glad you have been stable, and I really hope you continue to be.

Caro said...

Nice to see you and wow! You're close.

Nadine said...

I'm pretty sure you deserve a little quiet time. Rest up!

alley said...

Rest is a good thing at this point.

As to the breastfeeding, every mom/baby pair is different. I thought the feeling of being a human pacifier would drive me nuts, so I didn't breastfeed much after the first couple of weeks. I guess my point is to not get too attached to any plan, as kids have a way of changing your plans, and don't get all guilt ridden if breastfeeding doesn't work out, for what ever reason.

Good luck on the gestating.

Sarah said...

eh, you're just in time to start obsessing over mid june. this way you still have time to be surprised early :)

Cate said...

Good luck with breastfeeding! I am here for you if you need anyone to commiserate with (the first few weeks can be a tough row to hoe).

Colette said...

Oh I am so glad to hear that things are working out! Anyday now!!! How exciting!!! Can't wait to see the post announcing your baby!!! Hugs

peep said...

I'm with ya! Having the free time is a mixed blessing. We've made it this far and now the last days are taking the longest. Good for you for getting your doctor on board with the breastfeeding so at least you can try. I can't wait to hear about the birth when it finally comes.

Dreamer4agift said...

I'm so happy for you and I hope that these last few weeks are as relaxing s possible for you.

Congrats on being able to bf:)

Electronic Goose said...

That's awesome! Good luck with breastfeeding ...

Drea said...

Congratulations on graduation and some well-earned time to rest.

Cibele said...

Rest while you have the chance!!! I am glad to hear that you will the chance to try to breastfeed. Can;t wait to meet your little girl

Jackie said...

I was focused on our due date being at 41 weeks and was pretty OK until the following week when I became very impatient. Next time (provided there is one) I'll just tell myself the due date is definitely 42 weeks and be pleasantly surprised by anything earlier...
That said, I hope you hop into labor any day now and that it goes blissfully smoothly!!