Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Is this thing still on?

So sorry for dropping off the face of the blogosphere for so long. I have been battling my thoughts on how to manage my blog. While I really want to write quite a bit and even set aside some time for it, I also really want you, my bloggie buddies, to read it and comment. But, how can I expect others to read and comment when I have not been doing the same. Basically, I feel bad for not making the time to visit all my bloggie buddies. Surely, the rules for blogging are no less strict than the rules for in-person friendships. If I don't return phone calls, do I really deserve to get any phone calls? I think not.

And, so on that theory, I stopped writing for a bit. I kept telling myself that as soon as things calmed down I would resume my original time commitment to blogging. As many of you would have predicted though, things never calmed down. Sixteen units in l@w school really is an insane load. A 25 hour per week part-time job at a wine shop really does contribute to total exhaustion. Another job doing research for an attorney may not absorb a lot of time, but it sure absorbs a lot of mental space. Plus, the volunteer job for yet another attorney (so I can learn actually how to practice l@w as assigned counsel in TinyTown) has an inverse relationship between salary paid and time taken. (I think I can already hear the "Well, duh." from the peanut gallery.)

Given all that keeps me busy, I still find myself quite lonely in the world of TTC and just general emotional/social connection. So in the interest of a hint of sanity, I think I need to keep writing even if I fail to visit others for now. So, if you are still reading, please stop by for a visit again and take it on faith that I will come by yours after the completion of the semester. Really, I will.

Now, for a quick update on life below the belt.

Two weeks ago, all the blood tests started to suggest that I had an ectopic pregnancy cruisin' around in there. After an emergency appointment with the dildocam, it turns out that my body finally figured things out and ejected that lingering blastocyst that was producing HCG at a record low. Much wine was enjoyed that evening. This week, I got the news that I have a cute little 3cm cyst on left ovary. Good times. Apparently, I am to go back for another romp with Mr. Dildocam in 3 months to check on cute little cyst. More good times. And in case any of you are wondering, trying to conceive and have sex on demand with a housemate wandering about does NOT work. So, in the absence of immaculate conception, there will be no double lines this month either.

20 comments:

Not so little sister said...

Nicole! So good to hear from you again. I don't know if it's good or bad that life is so busy, but I hope you're feeling okay. We're always here! I check your blog at least once a day to see if you're back so keep on writing...

Aurelia said...

Hey I was just thinking about you, and no you don't need to comment to get comments, at least for the short term. We understand, really.

Now in the long term....like over several months, hey I wouldn't mind if you looked in on me once in awhile. :)

One bit of assvice? Because you knew it was coming from me of course, haha! I've gotten cysts like that to shrink with 10 days of provera, or sometimes 10-12 days of prometrium. Really any progesterone seems to work well.

I've also heard of birth control pills being used for 3 weeks if you have any of those around. Yes, you could "wait and see" for 3 months with a dildocam date later but being the impatient sort, I suck at that, so I like to take action.

Regardless I'm very happy that little bit of HCG stuff has dislodged, thank god. Again being the impatient sort I like to get events over physically so i can take care of me.

I hope with all this flurry of working and studying, you are taking care of you, please?

megan said...

it's still on and we're still here! it's so good to hear from you. i hope things settle down soon and that you're taking good care of yourself. xoxo

BerryBird said...

Nicole!! So good to hear from you. I tagged you for the Stuart Smalley Meme a while back, but the time never seemed right for mentioning it, so I'll tell you know.

Don't worry about making the rounds, we all know how many hours there are in the day, and your schedule doesn't leave time for that. Just having a post fom you every now and then is good enough!

The Road Less Travelled said...

Glad you're back. Hey I understand the need to hide away for a while, and like comfy shoes, this blog buddy is still here.

Barbara said...

Thanks for the update Nicole. I hope you get a respite from all that busyness. :)

Sarah said...

glad to hear from you and not at all concerned about not getting return comments. the blogosphere is here for you!

crappy about the ectopic and the cyst. sounds like good timing for the couple of months off though. good luck with all those many balls in the air!

Julia said...

Glad to hear from you. I check in here often, always hoping for a small update.

Hey, what about the whole tie on the door handle thing for the housemate to go away? :)

Tam said...

I'm still here too, waiting for news from you. I thought something was up. Sorry about the ectopic, really shit. Hopefully that cyst dissapears on it's own.

Thinking of you xxx

Caro said...

Thanks for the update.

I'm still here too.

Nadine said...

Howdy! Happy for the update. Will be here when and if you return. Hugs!

Sara said...

You write, we read if we want to, we comment if you need comments....

Don't worry about making the rounds on some kind of schedule. Just write what you need to write, work out what you need to work out, communicate what you need to communicate.

Dino aka Katy said...

yeah your back looks like your keeping busy. no worries write and i will visit even if you don't visit till later

Casey said...

Yay! You're back!

I will read and comment until you tell me to get lost.

hope548 said...

I still check up on you whether you leave comments or not! It's just how I roll. Looks like everyone else does too!

You sound busy but well. Sorry for the new ttc drama. Have a good weekend!

Chili said...

It's good to hear from you - you sound very busy! I thought I was busy... but yeesh girl! Take care of yourself, and I'll be reading whether you have time to visit my corner of the web or not!

Marie-Baguette said...

so nice to hear from you, I was getting worried. It is OK to take a break from the Internets. Sometimes it is just overwhelming. Sorry to read about the ectopic and the cyst, however cute he might be. Keeping my fingers crossed for you

Anns said...

Don't worry about the not getting comments if you don't leave... I've had some rough times myself recently and everyone was very understanding and still stopped by to check in on me.

I'm sorry things are so tough right now - and I'm sure the roommate situation doesn't help. Hang in there and know you can vent here whenever coz we'll be here to listen.

Anns xo

peep said...

I too come and go. The greatest thing about blogland is that everyone is forgiving, not that you need to be forgiven but there isn't a better word. You just come and go as you need and I will keep checking up on you too.

Dreamer4agift said...

Take all the time you need to get the semester taken care of. I kept checking in to see if you'd updated or not, but the last week I've been busy with school and work myself, so I understand.

Good luck with the whole cyst thing...sucks really.